Love is patient....

Hi Friends,

I am getting a little personal on the blog today.

So as of February 18th 2014, it has been two years since Tevis' life changed forever

I took him to the hospital February 15th he was literally dieing on me, he was so sick. He had a really bad infection starting from his left foot and slowly started moving towards his heart, I took him to the hospital just in time, he had two emergency surgery before the BIG surgery on feb. 18th where he had to have his left foot amputated. I thank god EVERYDAY for his second chance at life. It may not always be easy but he is alive and well for the most part. Diabetes is a major disease and very treatable if you take care of yourself. He was so strong about all this and had the best attitude. I am proud to be his Fiance. He goes to a very amazing Prosthetic doctor, Kenney Orthopedics, and he is in a commercial that airs on Fox here around the area and did a testimonial video I wanted to share with you all.


This video was taken well over a year ago, he was new to walking.

So when he was in the hospital I made the decision to quit my job in Ft Wayne sooner then we talked about so i could be with him to take care of him. I have been taking care of him and doing whatever i can to make life easier for him for over two years, and Wednesday morning I leave for Oklahoma for 4 nights 5 days... first time we will be apart for this long, so my anxiety has been high lately. I know he will be okay, but i always know how much he needs me most days and how much work our dogs can be. I am thankful he has a handful of people to call and be there for him, but its not me, so its still hard to leave, BUT i am excited to spend time with family. I hope there wont be too many times in life where i have to be apart from him like this. Anyone who is around us would understand my anxiety, i am his security blanket. Say a little prayer for us!

You can read more on the Tevis' Tab.

So my next little subject i wanted to talk about and get off my chest to help my anxiety is my PCOS (go read about it, its very interesting to learn about it and better understand what i am going through). Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.
So over the last 2-4 years I don't have Aunt Flow come visit me on its own, i need extra help! I typically have to take pills for 10 days to jump start, so annoying, so needless to say, baby making isn't easy either, and that's a post for a whole other day. I amazingly had AF come visit my on its own two months in a row 3-4 months ago, maybe a tad longer. Life got busy and i forgot to continute with my pills for i went a few months without one.. no biggy usually. When i finally remembered, i start another round feb. 1st.... its march 3rd and AF decided to NOT visit. Called my OBGYN, they immediately want me to take a PG test, said 9 times outta 10, you are pregnant. i am that 1%, because the PG test was a big fat negative! I knew it would be :( So Doctor instructed me to go ahead and take another round of pills maybe i need even more help this time around to get AF to visit. So i am on day 5 of pills, i pray AF visits! I am worried as hell something is wrong.... If i don't have AF come visit then i have to schedule an appointment and have an ultrasound done to see what is going on. My anxiety heightens just writing all this, but i feel it will help getting it out there and maybe some advice and encouraging words will help me. I can't believe with all my weight i have lost and how i have been exercising and watching mostly what i eat that it hasn't come on its own..that's ONE thing my doctor said should happen, if i started taking better care of myself it should come back on its own. So i am very discouraged right now and PRAYING nothing major is wrong.

Prayers welcome all around today! Have a great Tuesday, hug your loved ones, Life is precious!

Tevis' Motivational Testimony

Tevis made a commercial with Kenney Orthopedics last fall, and we are just now seeing his clip of the video. MADE me tear up when i watched it! I love him so much he is so brave and strong!

Tevis' Bowling

We went bowling today, Tevis and I need practice!
Tevis has bowled all his life and is a pretty good bowler.
He is so smart with the game and knows everything about it.
He is a great coach and although he is def. burned out on bowling it will always be his passion.
He has practiced a few times since he got his prosthetic, he is worried he wont ever bowl the way he use to but i think he is doing a fine job.
 here is a video! :) ENJOY!

Journey To Walking Again

It has been almost a full year since Tevis was able to walk again. As you've read through my two posts about Tevis in the tab called Tevis' Story, you know last Feb he had a below the knee amputation on his left leg. He spent about 2-3 months, maybe little longer, confined to a wheel chair. Thinking about it now doesn't seem like a long time, but living and being with tevis for that time it seemed like 6 months. Just think how you would feel being confined to a wheel chair and not be able to walk, stand up, or even take a regular shower ever again. Going places took a bit longer, I had to get him into the car, then fold his wheel chair up and put it in the trunk, then get it out when we got to wherever we were going, I swear i built some muscles doing it. Well He got his first prosthetic leg in May of last year if I remember right. It has been a battle but he is overall doing very well and he is finally getting his final permanent leg and should be able to enjoy life better.

I want to share some photos & videos later...& bare with my because they are just iPhone pictures.

His very first time trying out his leg and walking and standing up for the first time in months!

This is from his fundraiser his friends, family and I threw for him & just showing how he was confined to a wheel chair.

Tevis home last spring/summer with his very first leg & of course its colts!

I hope to post some videos sometime...
Until then Just pray for Tevis for he has a life time of struggles!

Tevis' Story Part 2

So it was finally to go home and leave the hospital! Before he was sick he was living with his boss and i was visiting every weekend and sometimes once a week. We had already made plans for me to move march 9th..I was with tevis at home for three full days and then I had to get back to work. I worked for a week and ended up quitting a week early. I could not stand being away from him. In those first three days was his hardest days! Learning how to be in wheel chair yet get from chair to bed or chair to the toilet we mistakenly was having him get up on to the walker and then pivot and sit in his wheel chair, we were finally told by his physical therapist how to get from chair, toilet, bed to his wheel chair without having to use all his energy on standing up on his one good with the walker, so things started getting easier and he could do more things on his own now, which made me feel better since i was about to leave to head back to ft wayne and work. I couldn't stand staying away after that week i moved in with him. & by the time i got back to him he was so much better about moving on his own and doing things on his own. He could hop around with the walker with no problem. He felt so good that he wanted to pick Delaney up and go to his pro shop, but things went down hill fast. He ended up falling right on his stump, it hurt him so bad and forever made him scared to use walker or crutches. He sometimes uses them now but not often. He was in a wheel chair for 2-3 months before he got his first prosthetic leg. & although it too came with complication and challenges he has been walking since may-june and has over been doing great. Once he was good and ok with his new leg we were able to move back to where he was living before, and soon we will be moving to his actual house where its being rented right now. We take each day at a time and I am here with him everyday helping him and taking care of him and making sure he doesnt over do it. He is about to get his final and permanent prosthetic leg and it will be so better for him. I could have went on and on with this story and told every detail but i made it as short as possible and just wanted to let everyone know a little about Tevis without giving toooo much boring information.

Tevis' Story

***I am going to try to keep this as short as possible to get the point across. It will be hard to right this post without crying as well.*** Sorry if i babble, hehe

I never knew Tevis' health history, though with being his girlfriend for over a year at the time maybe i should have known. It all started last year on Superbowl weekend, tevis wasn't feeling well, always felt sick always was tired, just wanted to sleep all the time. He toughed it out through the weekend, and we had a pretty good weekend together. I left Monday morning like normal to head back to ft wayne for work for the week, then as usual on Friday i drove down to be with him for the weekend. I had my birthday and turned 23. I got beautiful flowers from him and had dinner with my family. That weekend we planned a big group dinner with a bunch of friends at Fireside on saturday feb. 11th, 2012 in Greenwood for my birthday, and then a movie on sunday feb. 12, 2012. Tevis had felt sick all week, i think at this point he was throwing up and nothing tasted good to him not even Dt Mt Dew which was his favorite. I thought he just had the flu, few weeks before his daughter was sick. So i get there on friday night, we have to run into greenwood to get rent money from his sister, he cant drive because he feels horrible so i drive, and we finally get back to the house around 10pm he goes to bed and he literally stayed in bed until monday when i left for work. All my birthday plans and valentines day plans were canceled. tevis had been sick all weekend and throwing up like crazy. He said he had either stepped on something or twisted his left ankle it was so swollen, he couldn't walk on it. He was falling apart. He said he felt ok when i was leaving. I thought ok he will be fine, but something deep down my in stomach knew he wasn't okay! Tuesday came along which was valentines day. I got more flowers and Breaking Dawn Part 1. Then all of a sudden i got text messages from a couple friends saying Tevis looks horrible, please make him go see a doctor and etc. I was thinking I KNEW something bad was going on. He Finally calls me and says "I think my foot is infected, if i go to the hospital i know they are going to cut if off". I am at work, and i am freaking out and crying and worrying. He told me he was going to call his mom stop by the store take a shower clean his foot and go to bed, and he was going to the hospital when he woke up next day. He of course wanted me there, I went home and packed. I got up as early as i could Wednesday February 15th, 2011. It was the longest 2 hour drive ever! At the time i didnt know what was really goin on, but when i walked in the house it smelled so bad, knowing now, his foot was so infected it really was bad. He got around and we head to the hospitals ER. Basically was a diabetic foot Ulster that got infected.My tevis was in bad shape, he was in septic shock, high fever, renal failure, and on his way to leaving this earth. The infection was spreading and fast, it got up to his groin area, not even 12 hours later he may have been dead. They got him some amazing pain meds, and  got him started on lots of good antibiotics. He was admitted to the hospital and having emergency surgery on his foot that night, they needed to clean it and get all the infection out and see if it had spread, if it got to the bone there was nothing they could do by cut it off. They had another surgery on Friday February 17th..to clean his foot some more, his toes were already dieing and they were pretty sure it had spread to the bone. The doctor did not end up going along with the amputation because tevis wasnt prepared for this yet. That evening he still wasn't doing any better, that left foot needed to be amputated in order for him to start recovery. Tevis, his mom, his doctor and I had a serious talk and we all agreed that the amputation needed to happen and fast. They did a below the knee amputation of his left foot Saturday February 18th, 2012. It was so emotional when he was out and back in his room seeing his foot plus some of his leg just gone. On a happy note, Tevis literally got better health wise all around. He bounced back like nothing ever happened. I started to feel relieved but knew we had a long road ahead of us. he had a great attitude about having the amputation always making jokes, it was his way of dealing with it i suppose. made me be a little more at ease i suppose, i was a MESS the whole time we were there, i looked like crap. Barely showered because i didnt want to leave his side. Tevis had his room full almost ALL the time. At one point we had to start saying people need t be in an out by 8 pm. Tevis needed his rest, since nurses bother him every two hours. He had a few days to recover before they were gonna release him. He was so scared to leave the hospital to not have all that hospital help anymore.

***so that first part of his story, not even a FULL version, just enough to get the point across!****
I will talk more about his amputation in another post